another saturday, another night of absolutely nothing to do. but think. about people. generally, my mind tends toward those that are currently in my life.
last night, i got to thinking about all of those people that were in my life for what seemed to be forever, but in actuality was only a brief period of time. take s.l., and old friend who used to ride the bus with me in middle school. he was somewhat of a spaz. but a great guy. he had this cat that would chase the light shined by a flashlight. it was hilarious. and i was thinking, i wonder what happened to this guy. i vainly tried to google him, but nothing comes up. will i ever see him again? does it matter? did he ever have a random thought on a lonely saturday night about me?
this got me to thinking about friendships. i generally tend not to keep them for very long, for whatever reason i tend to come up with. over the past six months, i have all of the sudden a very good friend. an odd thing for me. my best friend for the past ten years has been my sister, and all of the sudden, i am letting this other person into my life as a confidant and confidee (not a word, but you get the idea). am i growing up? did i finally realize that i am lonely and in need of people to spend time with? was it just an accident of time, meeting someone who was incredibly cool and who shares an enormity of common interests?
i have had friends before, but for the most part, brief friends. friends for two years. friends that once they are out of my life, i find excuses as to why they are not in my life anymore that make sense only to me. remember when she insulted you for, what was that reason again? remember when he tried to kiss you late night at that bar? remember what her friend said to you and she did nothing to combat the claim? did those things even really happen? have i exaggerated them in my mind to allow me to drop these people, because it would take effort to maintain a friendship?
i am getting off topic, if there is a topic, but hear this. don't let me be that girl. you are too good of a friend to let me get off that easily.
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Awn...were u drunk? haha, just kidding. I'm so inviting myself over to your place in the new city you move to, especially if it's Chicago. Other ones, not so much. And, we will find you a replacement ob and pd hang out along with some bougie ones for high maintenance out of town guests like me, hehe.
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