the beginning of the end

well, i already feel the sense of impending doom.

friday will not be a good day. my mind is continually clouded with anxiety. sure, i have created little games that i play with myself to make this feeling go away. games like countdown to news traveling. that sort of thing.

when i am having these feelings, i generally turn to friends in order to quell my fears.
some friends take advantage of the situation.
some friends act like nothing has happened.
some friends act like i am ruining their lives.

none of these has been an accurate description of the best type of friend.

the response was better than i could have expected (ever).
and i plan on practising my speech on you.
twice.